I'm doing fine with the workouts, although I think I'm not doing some of the kicks correctly. Can I say how helpful the videos are? The still pictures are useful but I really get clarification from the videos. This is just a different type of learning than I've ever done before -- learning to move my body in a certain way is not one of my strengths. My sense of spatial awareness is not very well-developed, apparently, so I'm finding it very challenging to learn how to do what I see in the videos. But I think it's really good for me -- stretching my brain as well as my body.
I'm having trouble sticking to the diet precisely. As always, I'm happy to eat healthy meals & snacks -- I really don't mind my simple-super plates or even my apple & egg white suppers. But I'm finding myself snacking here and there, especially when somebody else around me is eating. My daughter's favorite snack these days is raisins and slivered almonds, and I have trouble staying away when I mix up some for her. After a particularly tough parenting day, I had a beer while watching the Oscars at a bar with friends.
On PCP, I didn't "cheat" at all, so I'm not sure what's happening here. Part of me is still resistant to being "on a diet," although my daily eating has improved a lot in the last month. It's still a habit to reach for food when I'm upset or tired, as a form of comfort, and I guess I'm just going to have to take that on little by little. My daughter had an epic tantrum the other day (a rare occurrence, really) and I noticed how I just wanted some of the leftover cake in the fridge. (I threw it out instead of eating it.)
I'm really enjoying feeling stronger and more flexible, though, so I'm trying to focus on that when I want to eat something that's not part of the plan. I can feel my legs holding me up as I run around at the playground, I can feel my core muscles and my back muscles keeping my good posture when I sing. The other night at choir rehearsal, where we stand for 2 hours while we sing, I felt like balancing on one leg for a while (why? I don't know) so I did. Maybe it helped me stand up taller and allow more room for my lungs to expand. It was fun, though.
Wow, we're almost a month into this. I already feel big changes, can't imagine what's still on the way.
This is the curse of being a graduated PCPer. When you've been through the crucible like that it's hard to motivate for a second burst of strictness. This is all fine and a sign of good mental health. Let's get a team building exercise going.
ReplyDeleteI will blog and support more! I can recommit to that. I can't believe you felt like balancing on 1 leg during choir. How kung-fuey of you :)
ReplyDeleteIt is a very different experience and I am kind of shocked at how much I was relying on the PCP group support. I've also had this terrible cold twice in the last month and my usual winter hopelessness. Thanks for your encouragement on my failure to stay with the process. Not sure what I should do. I hate to simply waste the month and the money. It's a lot of money for me and also a waste of a good opportunity to refocus myself and increase my health. Ah. I don't know. It is the place of not knowing. And failing.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing well - as usual - adapting and making the most of it! Thanks for your beautiful writing and your honesty.
Way to put the cake where it belongs! I think one of the tricks better food choices is to realize what your body is really craving--novelty, good feelings--and provide it in other ways. Sounds like you've hit upon--kicked upon?--one by practicing your balance. We should keep looking for new and interesting 'games' to play with our developing skills. I wonder if I can get away with the ping-pong ball on the subway...
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