Day 6: No drama

There are many things that are similar between the PCP and the KFB: the basic structure of daily emails, daily workouts, diet maintenance, blogging, a group of people all training together. But I'm starting to see that the experience is very different, at least so far.

One big difference so far is the absence of any kind of DRAMA. I had a lot of drama during the PCP: the workouts made me cry more than once, I was often angry about the amount or type of food I was allowed to have, and I struggled with feeling like a total social outcast when I ate my apple & egg white while everybody else ate roast duck or whatever.

Now, it's only been a week on the KFB, but I'm not feeling any drama. The workouts are not super-easy, but well within my ability. On that last set of kicks I'm feeling pretty tired, so I swear a little bit and then it's done. I know our diet hasn't really kicked in yet, but I'm already eating better than I was last week, and that's coming easily. I'm willing to bet that apple & egg white is in my future, but whatever, it's just for a little while.

The big difference is that I'm just not anxious about this. I'm going to do my best, I want to get good results and really work this program for all I can, but I'm not sweating any of it. I like to say that I'm a recovering perfectionist, and I know now that I don't have to do every single bit of this program perfectly in order to learn and benefit.

Maybe the stretching and meditation are helping me to be calmer. Maybe the confidence I got from completing the PCP is helping me through. Maybe it's just the beginning and I will be a raging drama queen before this is all over. I'm enjoying the smooth ride as long as it lasts.

One other interesting note: I'm really feeling my abdominal muscles today, almost like I'm wearing a corset. On the PCP after ab work, I felt most sore right down the front of my stomach, but I'm feeling the muscles all around my midsection. Really interesting. I can poke through the pudge and tell that there are some good muscles under there. Now to work on shedding some more fat so those muscles can peek through!